Awareness

                              Awareness

Please write your answers down...

1) Which sky has more blue in it?

2) Which picture has the most horses?

3) How many gray horses do you see?

4) What does your heart tell you when you look at the pictures?

5) What does your mind tell you when you look at the pictures?


1) Does your job bring happiness to you?

2) How does it feel to Love You?

3) Do you believe you can achieve ?

4) Do you have time for your life?

5) How would you like to celebrate your Birthday?






On a scale of 1- 10...One being I need to learn to honor me --------- 10 being I  completely honor me...

What number would you pick for how you feel at this exact moment?
  
I am asking questions to the autopilot part of You... The part of You that just does it...examples...
breathing, brushing teeth, going to the store, believing values and beliefs that aren't yours...

Awareness...Mindfulness...BE-ing present...Conscious living... It's all about YOU ...and learning to STOP living on auto pilot and taking responsibility , learning how to live the life you want to be living NOW... BE-ing in control of your thoughts and feelings!

Example ... I have a client we will her Shelly ,  ...She works 40- 50 hours a week as a nurse, baby sits her grand kids,  cares for her ill husband, helps folks who need help, plus volunteers at the library... Shelly has the belief that she is the care taker of everyone ... Shelly goes constantly on auto pilot  and doesn't stop until it's time for bed...

 This has been Shelly's life for the past 35 years...Shelly has a deep sadness in her heart and is so lonely, she also has a huge anger because NO one takes care of her...The horses are helping Shelly to figure out how to take care of her...to be in control of her thoughts and her life...To take care of Shelly. 

To often folks are saying my life has gone by so fast, I am too old to travel, I wanted to be _______, I thought I would have ___________________, I am lonely etc...

Having awareness of the life you are living, what you are thinking and doing...Does it honor you? Is that little voice inside using kind words or telling you untruths...Awareness is getting off auto pilot and learning to experience your life in a new way...A way that brings Love and fulfillment to your heart & soul... ( Oh what joy you bring to the world)

Exercise : For today every time you have a feeling or thought that puts you down or doesn't honor you or is time related...example... I would like to experience that but I don't have time...maybe next month...
1) Write it Down
2) In another pen color write down what you want to be saying and believing.
3) Go through your list and number your top three... 
4) For the next two weeks have your full attention on your top three...When the old way or words come up , say 10 times your new words.
5) Review your list and work on the next three...

Asia 

 

  BE*lieve in YOU...                                                                                                Peace & Joy...Lisa
 

Wild Willie

Willie

  I met Willie last year under circumstances for him that were horrible... Most of his short life has been that way... The beginning of his life held lots of abuse , followed by neglect from other care takers of him...

Our paths crossed again last month and I was asked" do you want him"... There is something about this pony ( I call him a pony but he is a miniature horse ) . When I look at him I swell with love for this little guy. " Yes ... I would love to care for him"

Went to pick him up and he was covered with burs . 

Willie

Hanging out with Willie and giving him lots of treats and love at his old house...

   Went to pick Willie up and no way would he allow a human near him... He bucked , reared and glared... He name was Jackson but everyone was calling him "Jackass" ... So a name change was in order... The new owners of the farm allowed Willie to stay there for additional week so I could work with him calmly and get his trust before relocating him to his new home...

 

He knows he is special and YES he is!

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                                      Willie is terrified of ropes or when you lift you hand he trembles. We move very slowly around him...and talk very softly...He would allow us to touch his face but no wear else... The day arrived that I felt we could get a halter on him and bring him home...It all went calmly and smoothly ...Yes he was so scared...

The herd didn't know what to think of this little creature...We laughed lots that day and Willie enjoyed the attention the horses paid him.

It has been the greatest gift to have Willie here... It's been 2 weeks and he is finally starting to trust me.  He is with three of the older horses and possibly next spring will join the herd.

I cut his mane off due to all the burs , I wanted to save some of his tail, which took many hours to clean... What a smart pony he is...He freaked out at first when I was cleaning him up...But when he realized I was getting the burs out he never moved...

Look at how beautiful he is!

Making friends with Apache...Notice Willie's eye watching me.

What Willie has taught me so far

1) Yes with love anything is possible...

2) Forgiveness sets you FREE !!!

3) How to slow down and BE...

4) It's so important and FUN to add some spark to your life...

5) Trust... We are both learning to trust each other...I spent many of hours behind him cleaning his tail at any moment he could have kicked me a good one... I had to trust he'd keep his hooves on the ground and Willie had to trust that I wouldn't hurt him....

I will keep you posted on Willie and his progress... I look forward to Willie meeting my clients and him figuring out his role here...at Free Spirit Ranch...

May this story inspire you to start living from a place of deep love for you and all the miracles that surround you each and every day... If we all keep loving our selves to the max what a fabulous world we will be creating ... 

An Abundance of Health* Joy* Peace ...Lisa

The Journey Part 3

                            The Journey Part 3

Rohan and I

All my many lessons and learning of my walk between life and the unknown (death)...

A few years ago I became a Shamanic Priestess ... Little did I know then how much help that training would be in my journey back to health. One of the sayings I have heard numerous times is to be a true shaman / Shawomen  one must experience death and rebirth... If that is true I consider that successfully accomphlished!

Do the Doctors know how and  why I lost so much blood or where it went ... NO
I do not know where all my blood went... There was a lot missing... :) 
BUT I do know why this happened according to what I believe.

I relived every moment of my life... Majority of it was a lot of fun . I know and have met so many awesome folks.  I am so  grateful for all those experiences. As an adult observing my childhood I was beat and tormented by my older cousin that lived with us for a short while. I had forgotten all about that...But all the emotions and sadness I felt have always been with me.
What I discovered is that at a young age I didn't feel protected or safe , I felt unloved and that I didn't matter...I built such big walls around my heart...All those unhealthy feelings have always stayed with me...

I am a Libra and Libra's are all about balance and fairness... throughout my early schooling to deal with my anger  I beat up every bully that crossed my path ... I became the defender for the weak.  I have always had this anger in me and didn't understand where it came from...Sometimes that anger served we well other times it was very dysfunctional.

 I have been reflecting on all my years of higher schooling and training for what I do as a profession, I laughed so hard...All my teachers have told me I had hurts I needed to deal with , let go... face my fear... When I became a Hypnotherapist  you practise a lot on each other... I  was the worst person to practise on...I kept all my emotions locked up tight to protect that little girl in me that wasn't protected...I didn't want to relive any pain...I believed I lived through it once WHY would I do it again...

Some folks live through horrible experiences worse than we can possibly imagine. That was a fear for me. I knew something happened when I was young and I was terrified on an unconscious level to know. As an adult and from all my training I can laugh now at how silly I was to not do my own work... What my cousin did to me I easily found forgiveness for ... My parents did the best they could...In all the yuk that happens in life, being beat I could easily handle. My Biggest realization is how sensitive I am as a human being and a soul. My sensitivity is what makes me so awesome and talented at my work, I am good and I know it... :) I love what I do! The horses and I empower lots of folks...

 But in living my life I have NOT spend time on knowing how to live in the world when you are so sensitive... My feelings get hurt so easily ... I have wall upon wall built around me... I have only allowed three individuals into my heart unconditional and they are my children. I allow my clients in while I work with them and few girlfriends get to visit the true me on few rare occasions... Men sorry never ...unless you are a client...  That is why I am surrounded by animals I trust them... This is why I have so many  horses... The herd enjoys volunteering to assist folks on there journey's to self discovery... It's SAFE
FYI...
My body gave me so many warnings over the past 20 years to deal with the pain in me...I didn't listen... Here are some examples:
I had an issue with my Liver.... Liver is where you hold your anger.
I have always struggled with my weight...oversensitive, need for protection, hidden anger and resistance to forgive.
Blood...Represents joy in the body, flowing freely
Tightness in hips...Fear in going forward  

The pink words come from Louise Hay's book " You Can Heal Your Life" Louise also gives an affirmation after each explanation...

I still am recovering but with so much gratitude to BE alive with all this helpful knowledge...Majority of my day is spent on me taking control of my health...Healing my mind , body and soul...It is my job to heal me... I believe we give up too much of our power to Doctors , politicians ...etc... Take your power back!
I do that by meditating twice a day, preparing healthy real food to eat ,Take all kinds of supplements, I am coaching me, I work with a Flower Essence Practitioner and a coach. I have learned to love myself more deeply and unconditionally...I speak my truth and what I need...
I do have Lyme's( temporary)  after having the reaction to antibiotics, I decided to try Flower Essences . I go every other week to see Beth ... I love it... The flower essence help me spiritually, emotionally, physically and have helped release all the anger from my body...If you would like more info on flower essence please let me know...

What a forced ( HA , ha ) journey this has been... I am thankful for how I have grown ... But if I heard my body and listened it could have been so much easier... I will hear my body and take positive action steps ... and it will be JOY - Filled!Overflowing!!!

May my journey assist you into stepping into your BEST life! 
Spend time on getting to know YOU! What makes you happy? How do you function in the world? May you be kind to YOU and love your self completely...
Remember the world will treat you based on how you feel about YOU!!!

 Over flowing amounts of Peace* Joy * Health...Lisa

Shadow* Rohan* Fiona

I'm Back, Part 2....

                         I'm Back Part 2

So enjoy admiring the horses I live with and their rainbow of color...

I'm waiting for the Doctor to tell me what drugs would help me and to my surprise they tell me to sit down and that I'm missing more than half the blood in my body...and that I need a blood transfusion... I'm a little freaked and want to know how long that will take so I get home.... I have lots of stuff that needs to get done...

I must have slept through my Biology class... My Hemoglobin was 3.3 for a women it needs to be between 11.6-16...  Yes I was missing lots of blood and I now  had the reason I couldn't breath...I didn't have enough oxygen in my body due to lack of blood... I am so blessed I didn't have a heart attack ... I shocked many people due to the fact I could still talk and walk... Yes I'm from tough Polish stock... Not to take this too lightly... I am blessed to be alive and have NO complications...

Very strange to have my kids become the care takers of  me and the ranch...

Even stranger to have a Doctor write on a white board all the terrible things that could be wrong with you ... I had my son hang something over all the negative words and my daughter wrote positive affirmations on the other side... I kept the TV off  and visualized myself healthy , well and remembered how it would feel to be healthy  again.

Lots of tests came back off the charts ... Well of course they would ,I've been sick for a long time. My second day in ICU ... Thank you every one for all the prayers and energy ... Most of my repeat tests came back normal... Yes I was free of disease ... But Not dis----ease in my body... I believe our emotions can make us  sick ... I was so pissed off that I couldn't go there , I refused ... That's OK ... I told myself to let go and give it to spirit (God , Universe... What ever your faith is_) Which gave me lots of relief...

The new thing now is that the Dr truly believes it's Lyme's Disease... Of  Course I'm in denial ... I have this huge anger problem... I only acted upon it as a child... As an adult I have learned to control it. I want to start breaking things or go out side and scream.... I'm tied down to machines for blood , watch my heart... etc... I am afraid to stay in a hospital ... Too many horror movies that I have watched as a teenager... My son spends the night with me... So sweet... Allie & Nick go back to the ranch to take care of animals and get ready for Asia's first horse show...

Asia and Allie... Yes they jump this fence that Allie is sitting on...

   The nurses at the hospital I was at were awesome! Every one was so kind and helpful...  including  DR. R :) Thank you!!! .. I look forward to the day when health care in the US involves holistic care and traditional...What a glorious world that will BE!


I received 4 pints of blood ... My son kept taking pictures because he thought it was so cool . It's a very strange feeling  to know that some person you have never meet, blood is going into your body and is saving your life... Huge THANK YOU to everyone that donates blood ...Your blood may be in me...

I was discharged with a hemoglobin of 7.2 , I was feeling much better! I had high hopes of watching my daughter and Asia cross country event the following day... The car ride home was so painful and exhausting I knew I wouldn't be able to attend horse show...

I agreed to take an antibiotic against my better judgement. After three pills I found myself back in the hospital with an allergic reaction which caused unbearable pain...My body had 30 lbs of extra fluid ...My hands and feet were huge... I could hardly walk , all I wanted to do was cry from the pain... The Doctor thought it was  allergic reaction ... we decided the best thing was no more drugs for me at the present moment... My hemoglobin was up to 7.4 , my body was healing it's self... 

The next four days were hell to say the least... I couldn't walk , use my hands , I needed 24 hour help... Night time was the worse for pain...The pain was everywhere ... J.J and S.J took turns with the night shift with me... Thank you from the bottom of my heart ... They didn't sleep ....all I did was whine and cry... My attitude was hitting rock bottom...

I have a new understanding for anyone that is ill, can't breathe or are paralyzed... At times there is no way you can be positive... I couldn't stand being so depended on people for everything... I couldn't cook or cut up my food, do chores, wash clothes or sheets( when you are in bed all the time your sheets get nasty quick), couldn't read or write , go to the bathroom or shower,  I couldn't move ... Your body gets so sore , It's so painful from not moving... I was a terrible patient... I was so blessed in that after 4 days the pain eased up , swelling went down. I could see the light at the end of the tunnel... I decided to stop being negative ,  I couldn't be positive , I was still in too much pain... But I could be neutral which brought  mental and emotional relief to me and the folks around me... Huge Thank you to every one that brought us food... Your our angels!!!

I slept 18 hours a day...For the next three days every time I fell asleep I would be reliving every second of my life ... I was very over whelmed with the emotional pain I was experiencing... But I also was amazed at all the awesome people I have known over the years and all the Joy I had experienced. 
 

Part 3 will be on my Recovery and all the amazing learning's  I had. 

I do believe there is always some thing to be learned from all situations but sometimes you just need time to be mad , angry and completely pissed off  ... Give your self permission to do just that... 

Remember to totally LOVE YOU ! You are amazing.... You are here to experience living... Sometimes it's so blissful and sweet , sometimes your not sure how you'll make it... You Will!!!
Remember you don't have to know HOW...

Peace & Joy...Lisa  

The chickens were a get well gift... How many folks get that? 

 

I"M BACK...Part 1

                            

Apache AKA escape artist and I

                             I'm Back !!! 

      My journey to recovering  my Health

How true are the words " If you don't have your health you have nothing"

The last two months have been very challenging for my children, friends, animals and I... I take very good care of myself or at least I thought I did??? May you learn something from my experience of reclaiming my health.

I work out 4-5 days  a week , very intensely ... Plus Two days of weight training

Warning #1

  I needed to be taking more,Protein, vitamins and minerals my body was depleted . I eat organic , lots of greens but it wasn't enough... I mentioned to a friend (WS that would be you),   How tired I was getting after my workouts and that I needed a nap... WS recommended that I start taking protein after each work out , I did , that helped a little.

My menstrual cycle lasted for 6 weeks...

Warning # 2

Many reasons for this to happen, but I didn't go to the  Homeopath or the Doctor... From my research I learned that lack of Iron, ( Yes my daughter was telling me for months to start taking Iron) vitamins and minerals can cause extend cycles.

 I can run and walk up hills with ease

Warning #3

I was beginning to notice that it was becoming harder to walk up hills, I was losing my breath and it took so much effort. That is a problem because we live on a hill . Walking up the stairs at home started to become a problem.

I sleep 7- 8 hours a night in the summer... 8-9 hours a night in the winter.

Warning #4

For a couple of months I started sleeping only 5-6 hours a night in order to get more accomplished and to have fun . (important to have that work / fun balance. I was ignoring my bodies need for sleep.

I found an attached deer tick on me 18 months ago

Warning #5

I didn't have a round circle around tick bite so I ignored it. Some research is finding that you don't have to be bitten by a tick to get Lymes and not many folks get the red circle.

I work with a flower essence, energy worker ( Beth) to maintain my emotional / mental/ spiritual health

Warning #6

Beth had been telling me for over 2 years that I had some deep sadness that  I really needed to start releasing... I knew that ... I believe that our emotions can make us sick when we stuff our stuff... Did I work on my stuff ... No I didn't... 

                I paid for what I didn't Pay Attention to! 

I had a day with 3 hours sleep ... Worked with clients in the cold rain all day... Came down with the flu that night... Had a temp of 104 degrees for 3 days ... Did homeopathy which took care of flu ... Still had a very difficult time breathing , Started sleeping 14 hours a day... Met with three different healers who helped me tremendously...Two of them said I wasn't getting enough oxygen and suggested I see a doctor... 

I am completely holistic ...and prefer to take care of myself , family and animals that way... But once in awhile  a doctor is a good thing.

I finally agreed to go to the Doctor... It is really hard for me to even walk now. I think I'm going to get some antibiotic's  and be sent home... No I was admitted into the hospital... 

 

Part 2 will be posted 9/14/13

Shaka

    

Take care of you ... Listen to your body it really is talking to you!!! Peace...Lisa

 

  

Challenges or Not ????

 Challenges or Not????

                          That is the Question...

My son Nick with Phlaggston ( National show Horse...Yes that is a breed)

 Today I decided to write about my son Nick and all that he has taught me...Which is a lot!!!

Nick riding Phlaggston

 The question I'd like you to consider is Nick challenged or are we challenged for seeing him labeling him with Down Syndrome and Autism???

Take a moment and really look at your self and have an awareness of all the unique qualities YOU have!

Yes each and everyone of us is UNIQUE and has a special gift to offer the world ...What is your gift? Who around you is helping you to discover that part of you?

Nick has brought so much to our family. He has taught us how to stay grounded, to never give up, to believe in yourself, unconditional love for animals, nature and humanity...etc... To do what you love, live in the present moment, appreciate everything and to always believe in your self!

Was it easy raising Nick? When he was little it was the biggest challenge I have ever had... Was it a lot of work ... Yes it was... was it worth it? Yes every second of it...

When Nick was born I didn't know anything about Down Syndrome,  I was so thankful that , that was all he had ... Didn't sound too bad... Yes ignorance is Bliss... Nick and I were blessed to have been surrounded by folks with great wisdom and knowledge... ( Nick is my oldest)...

One thing that still bothers me to this day is that numerous folks told me it was OK to grieve for the child that Nick wasn't... Professionals and other parents said this... It took all my strength not to clap each and every ignorant person that believed such foolishness. I loved my son how dare someone say it's OK to grieve... If YOU ALLOW life to unfold you do find the Gem / Rainbow/ Happiness...

There are no guarantees in life...It is up to each of us to find JOY where we are...To learn what we are here to learn and be thankful...
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Nick was a runner since the time he could walk ( 20 months of age) ... He would escape and had a need to be in the woods/ nature and move... What I didn't realize is that the energy in our home was too much for Nick. Even though his dad and I didn't fight he could feel the stress and anger from us ... Nick needed to get away from the negativity... The only tool he had was his feet and to leave the house / yard... He had a need to find and feel peace...He had the inner knowing of how to do that. What is your Child/ Pet trying to tell you ?

*Nick teaches everyone  about inner knowing
* Loving and accepting yourself unconditionally
* Forgiveness 
* Hard work and knowing what you want pays off...Nick started riding horses  when he was 4 years old... He know barrel races, canters (run) on a horse independently in a field, He can ride...:) He can also down hill ski, blue runs no problem, he likes to go down diamonds ... He ski's the big mountains in Colorado...Enjoys hunting deer, loves to fish... He always catches more fish than any one...
*Go for your dreams
* Say your prayers everynight
 * Nick Teaches us to remember how important Animals and Nature are to your soul! 
* Remembers everyone's Birthday...and will call you to say Happy Birthday!  

Nick Having Fun...No It's not Halloween

 Nick lives life to the fullest...He will join in Equine Human Connection  (TM) and helps my clients sometimes... He gives the Best hugs! Always has a smile for you...Volunteers at the Humane Society walking dogs...Loves a new adventure...He wants to Sky Dive this summer...

Life is harder for Nick but he never lets that stop him...He knows what he wants and Goes for it... Nick is such an inspiration to me and so many others... 

Go for your dream!!! If Nick can do it, so can YOU!!! Challenges or NOT??? How sweet it is to accomplish a goal / dream or hearts desire... 
 YES YOU CAN !!! Keep your focus on your goal, leave the past in the past , stay present and keep your FOCUS!!!

Share your results...Please

Peace...Lisa

Nick taking Lucy Lou into groomer for a hair cut

 
   
 
 

Benefits of being Neutral

              Benefits of BE-ing Neutral

Monty ...My Jumper and best friend

I encourage my clients and children to master the feeling of BE-ing Neutral... How does that work you may be thinking?

When you are positive or negative you are using energy . When you master Neutral you keep your energy for you and increase your ability to focus and stay calm.

Example of How this works:

My Daughter and I attended a cross country schooling day this past Sunday...I would attend clinic on only three hours of sleep my daughter five hours of sleep, we would jump for two hours.

We both were exhausted and had a lot invested to attend clinic.

I decided I would BE neutral at clinic to conserve my energy. I would just BE... No being sad or happy... I would focus on the jumps Monty was to jump , allow my body and mind to do their job... No thinking...trust that we could do it...  Trust that all our jumps would BE successful! Trust that we had all the skills we needed to be successful and Allow it to just happen. BE present in the moment , no thinking about the past or future , ONLY the present moment...

Guess what??? We kicked Butt!!! Every Jump was successful ... It's the best Monty has ever jumped , it's the best I have ever ridden!  We were the perfect team!!! My daughter asked me 20 minutes into our lesson" What are you doing MOM"? She had never seen me ride like this before... I explained I am BE-ing Neutral... She and Asia began riding in a Neutral attitude and what a team the two of them make... They jumped the highest and widest jumps successfully... 

Once our lesson was done we celebrate our great success for the four of us!!! Horses received lots of carrots and a bath! Time to BE positive and Reflect so we can do this again, but with 8 hours of sleep... :)

BE-ing Neutral is a wonderful tool when you have a

~ task to accomplish 

~   Desire to experience something new

~ Need to Conserve your energy

~ Moving forward in life

~ Manage Stress

~Slimming your Body

~ Getting out of a relationship

~ Going into a relationship

~ Finding a new job

~ The List goes on...

REMEMBER once you have experienced what you wanted to experience to BE Positive and Celebrate your accomplishment!!! Reflect so you can recreate that success again and again .....

 

Monty and I out for a relaxing ride

Peace...Lisa